emo post made me feel better. I shall edit it down when I'm done typing this:
I took a swig of DayQuil and the first thought that flashed through my mind was "NOT AS TASTY AS PEPTO!"
Eugh. It burns us.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
I am angry
The yoga instructor likes to say that we should, not exactly embrace it, but acknowledge and feel our anger. Do not follow it to its root, do not try analyze why you are angry, just feel angry and eventually come to terms with the fact that you are angry. Do not try to escape the emotion, do not try to lash out or justify it. Don't make excuses. Just be angry. You need to come to terms with the fact that that angry person is a part of you. You cannot get rid of that person, you have to learn to live with them.
So that's what I'm doing... and in all honesty it only makes me want to lash out even more. However, by embracing the anger and not trying to rationalize it (because we as human beings do not like feeling angry, we like and can handle the side emotions it comes with better than we can handle the anger itself) I was able to understand where my anger truly is coming from. Hormones. Nobody around me has done anything that is particularly out of character for them, and it is getting close to my "I enjoy being a girl" time of the month. Usually I get the zits pop up everywhere side effect, I very rarely get angry like this. Strangely enough not many zits this month but a whole lot of rage.
Apparently I am not worth call backs.
I am angry at stupid people at the nursing homes I work at. Do not lay someone down shortly after I say we need them for therapy. Do not bitch at me for not getting YOUR PERSON FIRST THE SECOND YOU STEP IN. There were other therapists there before you. Also, if a person is just down the hall... GET THEM YOURSELF YOU LAZY BUM. >I Do not talk about farting on residents to get a reaction out of them. That makes you a diseased maggot who does horrible things to SICK OLD PEOPLE.
I encourage everyone to stop mocking my vernacular. It is was makes me endearing. BE ENDEARED DAMNIT!
I am ashamed that I snapped at mom yesterday over hotel reservations. She didn't deserve it.
I am also frustrated and upset that my immunity system is getting some sort of turbulence. I don't know if I'm getting a cold or if it is just my allergies starting to go into overdrive. I also get heartburn by just looking at food, so I dumped whatever money I got from the garage sale on pepto.
There have been some ups to my week though, last night I caught up on season g of QI and today I got a birthday brownie from Penny! <3 I also bought T-dawg's birthday present. He's getting the first 8 volumes of Naruto (I had vol. 4-8 already, I just needed to replace 1, 2, & 3) and while at B&N I picked up some photoshop magazines. I shall invest in CS5 when my loan check comes in. :o
I find I shall probably regret this post but whatever, this is my "I AM CANDID GET OVER IT" blog.
So that's what I'm doing... and in all honesty it only makes me want to lash out even more. However, by embracing the anger and not trying to rationalize it (because we as human beings do not like feeling angry, we like and can handle the side emotions it comes with better than we can handle the anger itself) I was able to understand where my anger truly is coming from. Hormones. Nobody around me has done anything that is particularly out of character for them, and it is getting close to my "I enjoy being a girl" time of the month. Usually I get the zits pop up everywhere side effect, I very rarely get angry like this. Strangely enough not many zits this month but a whole lot of rage.
Apparently I am not worth call backs.
I am angry at stupid people at the nursing homes I work at. Do not lay someone down shortly after I say we need them for therapy. Do not bitch at me for not getting YOUR PERSON FIRST THE SECOND YOU STEP IN. There were other therapists there before you. Also, if a person is just down the hall... GET THEM YOURSELF YOU LAZY BUM. >I Do not talk about farting on residents to get a reaction out of them. That makes you a diseased maggot who does horrible things to SICK OLD PEOPLE.
I encourage everyone to stop mocking my vernacular. It is was makes me endearing. BE ENDEARED DAMNIT!
I am ashamed that I snapped at mom yesterday over hotel reservations. She didn't deserve it.
I am also frustrated and upset that my immunity system is getting some sort of turbulence. I don't know if I'm getting a cold or if it is just my allergies starting to go into overdrive. I also get heartburn by just looking at food, so I dumped whatever money I got from the garage sale on pepto.
There have been some ups to my week though, last night I caught up on season g of QI and today I got a birthday brownie from Penny! <3 I also bought T-dawg's birthday present. He's getting the first 8 volumes of Naruto (I had vol. 4-8 already, I just needed to replace 1, 2, & 3) and while at B&N I picked up some photoshop magazines. I shall invest in CS5 when my loan check comes in. :o
I find I shall probably regret this post but whatever, this is my "I AM CANDID GET OVER IT" blog.
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